We Have Our Heading!!!

I borrowed the line above from Captain Jack Sparrow, who says this after he hands over his compass and finds out where his course lies for the treasure he is seeking.

Recently, I was searching for what God was calling me to do. The show that I had prayed to be in, prepared and researched for, had finished its last show. I felt lost. For the first time in 2 years, I was not sure what I should do. I did not want to be selfish and think that God still wanted me to be a part of this company that I was touring with and close myself off from what he was truly calling me to do. I prayed for God to enlighten me and to give me wisdom. Should I remain with this company that I love so well? Should I go forth and try a hand at doing some independent religious theater? (Bookings were low for the main company this would just possibly increase my work) Or should I open myself up for opportunities in the secular world? (Two of my fellow actors in the religious company were already doing this to increase work for themselves). I prayed and continued to cast about in the two pools that I could have a hand in creating more opportunity for myself. I got my answer 9 days later.

It shocked me so much that I almost leapt out of bed. "You are a religious actress and you are needed at the company that you are already with." I almost shouted out in response to that affirmation the words above "We have our heading!" but I did not want to disturb my husband who was still sleeping. I finished my novena that day to my confirmation saint and felt that she had been praying for me. Ironically, I had not started the novena for myself but to ask for the safety and protection of my friends. I had just added that my saint pray for me to find direction and so I did.

I went to mass to discover that it was the feast day of St. Therese also known as Little Flower. The responsoral hymn that we said during the reading of the Psalm also shocked me into amazement. "Guide me along the everlasting way. Guide me, Lord" I had been singing that song throughout my 9 days of discernment as a kind of singing prayer to God. I prayed the rosary after mass and then headed out to pick up one of my fellow actors. We were heading to do two shows for college students about 5 hours away. As my fellow actor, belted himself he asked "Do you know where your going?" In Captain Jack fashion I replied, "Aye, we have our heading!"

My fellow crew member, when you are feeling lost and feeling like your compass it out of sorts-pray!!! Pray for God, Our Good Captain, to give you wisdom on the course that he wants you to take. I shall be praying that you shall have open ears when He answers your prayer with your coordinates.

The Powder Monkey